Sharing Isn’t Always Caring

Sometimes,  the more I care for something, the less I want it exposed to the scrutiny of others. Generally, that’s the point for me when I have to put the piece away for a while – almost until I forget about it a bit – and revisit when I’m not quite as invested. Then, that’s the point when I can rework it a bit and share.

Although I’ve worked in creative fiction groups and taken classes and workshops where we’re encouraged to quickly churn out prose and immediately present it for group scrutiny – journalist style – that hasn’t ever helped me to get my best work in fiction. In non-fiction, when working to deadlines, after my research is done and I’ve got it right – sure! It’s no problem for me to churn out reams of good – sometimes even great – copy. But for whatever reason my prose benefits from simmering and a long point of view.

That’s a great benefit of aging for me: I  finally have the confidence from years of education and experience to know and trust my style and methods, and I’m also old enough to know that sometimes new is better and more is more. I like that I know what works for me but can still try something new.

Feeding Creativity

Those who know me know that I have more than one creative interest. In fact, I’ve written and illustrated a children’s book (still in revisions), I paint, draw and craft. And as much as I love and need to do these activities, they result in less time writing, which means less time working, which means less money in the bank.Version 2

I tell myself that it’s ok, because these activities constitute my leisure time when I might otherwise be watching tv or playing video games – which I love too! I also tell myself that these mental shifts away from the act of writing clear up and add to my subconscious library studio. Library studio? Yes, that’s the place in my head where ideas fly in the window, get shuffled and sorted, stored or worked on.

I know most people have a “well of creativity” but one thing no one has ever, in my entire life-to-date accused me of, was being like most people. Which used to bother me greatly, but I see now that I am older is a benefit – one that I need to train myself to embrace and use, rather than squash and avoid.